such a fucked up past few days…..
ill post more about it later. 7pm. im going to bed.
i know its really stupid but when im in bed at night and i cant sleep i always hope that i will get a call from selena and we will start talking again.
i know i know its stupid. she ignores me now. she has moved on and she wants nothing to do with me. so why do i still lay in bed awake thinking about her until 4am every night?
idk its just i miss her so much…
BREAKFAST=COFFEE. LUNCH=COFFEE. DINNER=COFFEE.
i stopped eating real food 2 weeks ago.
my little baby is growing up so fast. it feels like just yesterday she was a little girl….
OMGGGG i just saw this kohls commercial and the girl had bigger muscles than me!!!!! it really freaked me out. plus she was really tan. i need to start going outside once in a while so i can get a tan or at least stop being so lazy and use photoshop to give myself one. oh well thats ok summer is coming up soon so ill be able to lock myself in my basement for 3 months and no one will see me or my ghostly white biceps til next fall.
